Living in a tent at University 2

     

Just so you know,
Right now I am very very broke, but not for long. So please dont pity me. I have business interests that are maturing.(Yahoo!) And I will take you on that adventure too around xmas time. Should be fun. It will be in Guadalajara, Mexico. So, Mr. Fancy Businessman ....why are you broke?

Well it comes down to some choices and principles.As any business man worth their salt will tell you, sometimes you have to forget your own salary and comforts and pay your workers first and put your business first to reach your long term goals. Especially if you want to compete against people with a lot of money behind them.

             

           
                My business partner David Walsh (A legend of a guy) and I needed to invest heavily in some restaurants we have over the last few months, and the next few months too. So, cash doesn't exist but assets do and those assets are not fluid right now. I could take a big loan with heavy interest from a bank, but, personally I like to operate outside of the banking system where possible, (because of what I perceive they have done to my country.) Basically, we have been pretty broke for about 4 years now as I build the business with my friend David.We do not come from wealthy families so every penny that comes in goes out, and that is fine. After all that is how 'new wealth' is made. Most people think when you have your own businesses that you are made of money. Nothing could be further from the truth. I think it takes 3-5 years before you ever make a single penny. Unless you are a hero, which I am clearly not.

                Also, part of me wants to rebel against 'the norm.' Stick my two index fingers up at linear thinking, and also shout this as loud as possible ...'Why the F@ck should I live in a house if I can't afford to right now, just so you close minded folk feel ok, and your perfect world, where business men live in mansions doesn't collapse. Would you prefer I kept up appearances and lost everything including the 20 jobs David and I create.'....or something to that affect. This is how I roll and this 'madness' works really f@cking well in business. I dont owe a single penny to any institution and will hopefully be cashing in soon, if my luck holds out and hard work pays off. I am a product of every experience in life that I have ever had. Some awesome, some average and others bad.

            Where am I coming from? I love to follow instinct and dare to risk big. I trust my brain and body to take care of me. I love non-linear disruptive action and thought. This "madness" is part of why man discovered flight and why some day there will be campsites near universities full of students. (I f@cking bet ya!)  Maybe part of why I am camping  is because I fear loosing the hunger and the edge that I have carried like a double edge sword my whole life. When the money finally arrives will it destroy my need to drive forward and adventure. Will I become a softer, a less interested in life version, of myself former self. Or, maybe it's just cause I am a little mad! There definitely could be some of that in the mix too. I won't deny that possibility, but as I like to say... 'You have to be a little nuts or you will go nuts.' When it comes down to it, I don't even know why I am doing this, apart from the fact that I want to and I am too short on cash to rent.

           
                Where  my business interests are in Mexico right now is a very competitive, and for the last few months and the foreseeable future my business partner and I have opted to reinvest every cent to beat the competition. And, it is working gloriously, and I hope (if the risk and investment pays off) by the end of my time in University I will be on the up income wise once again.

            So in a way this may be my last opportunity to really experience financial hardship. I believe it is just as important to embrace the bad experiences, as it is the good ones. Keeps you feeling alive and present, and also inspires new thought and ideas that may lead to somewhere great that you can't conjure up doing the same things day in-day out.

               So please DONT FEEL SORRY FOR ME, or try to tell me that you know better. I love the messiness and hardship of life. I want this experience. I want to learn from this life. I will be dead and gone in less than 100 years and no matter what I do it will be forgotten in time. I am documenting this cause I want to,  and I feel driven to share the experience, and for a million other reasons I can't fathom or verbalise. Not everyone is going to like it, nor do I want everyone to like it. (Although some liking it would be nice.)

              Millions have endured a lot more than me, for a lot longer than me. All the 'nay sayers' and trolls who don't see merit in this project/adventure, or find fault in how I roll, have nothing to do with my direction, or my personal development as a human. And try as they may to belittle my efforts all they are doing is  missing the point . No one knows why we are here, or what we are supposed to do with our lives. Being critical of another human just highlights an inability to think at any great depth. F@ck, even I know I know nothing and that I am of little or no importance on a grand scale.

              So in conclusion, I am very happy now. I am here as a result of the choices and principles I choose to stand by, and because I want to communicate this simple message

-Life is Fucking Short, Live it!

I have a website www.glowpunk.com. My life is on there, like an open book. You can link up with me 1000 different ways should you wish.

Peace & Love
Frank Cronin
Glowpunk

How to be a funny man 3 (take 2)

Third Comedy Open Mic

Tough crowd, bad show, I bombed but Great host Mike runs a good ship

Monday night at the Brainwash, it was a mixed open night, three rappers/poets before me and then I got up and tried to deliver dry material. The room was completely quiet. I nearly left with my tail between my legs after my 3min30sec set but by chance stayed on and watched a guy kill. He was great.

   The room was still silent for him too, and that made me think wow, it really is partly the crowd and the room. He was touring and everything and still played to silence... He did brilliantly though and kept his pauses and timings... I imagine we may hear about this fella in the future, i think he may have just given me the best lesson about sticking to your guns and be fearless with your material... The room tried to destroy him and he just slowed it down and destroyed the room. Awesome to watch a comedian kill in complete silence.

I did how ever make a few school boy errors...



1 Signed up after a rapper.
2. Tried new material without preparing and committing properly.
3. Showed signs of fear.
4. I wasn't amped up or focused, too casual.
5. Openly cared to much about the audience's reaction.


I "bombed"... and if that is as bad as it gets I should be ok from here on in....maybe... hmmm

Walked back through the Tenderloin and Mission Street area which is a tough part of town and arrived home in one piece, Laptop intact... It seems the lads on the streets there only want to sell drugs and not mug. Actually have met a few cool cats on my little walks. Sad to see so many people in turmoil though.

New goals, commit to my material and pause and hold as the material dictates, be less reliant on the audiences responses while still being present.. It is a fine balance and hard to put down in text but I know what i mean and i guess some people who have been in my position will.

The key is to get up tomorrow and try and kill.....

C'mon ego stay strong! You can fucking do it!


Glowpunk